their in my walls their gonna hurt me

CONFETTI'S AWESOME SUPER DUPER DUMP OF MADNESS

 CONFETTI'S AWESOME SUPER DUPER DUMP OF MADNESS

i find dumping my feeling onto people really awkward, since ive only done it once or twice to my bestest of friends. even if they're willingly letting me vent, it stills feels supa weird!! so i made a blog account where i can let that out w/o feeling like im just DUMPING all my problems onto some internet friend i love with my whole heart (platonically, of course) but since im already writing a post, i might aswell vent, right? seems like the logical thing to do other than just making a whole new post

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confetti's dump

its not weird to like being around your ex, right? usually when youve went through a simple, non-toxic breakup. problem is, thats not the outcome. they guilt tripped me after i stated wanting to break up with them, and it made me feel like i was the problem. even after they made one of my dearest friends heavily uncomfortable with their words, and ill genuinely hate them for never apologizing. but i love being around them, and i hate it. i feel like they're the best ill ever get out of a partner, the only person who will ever truly love me romantically. i cant see anyone who would view me that way but them. but i know trying to get back together would be a terrible idea. theyve hurt me before and they'll most likely hurt me again. they're poly, im not, and i knew what i was getting into dating them. which is one of the reasons i decided to break up. i want someone who will love me romantically, and me only. so i decided it was the best idea for myself. ill never have them to myself, they have probably 4 partners at the moment, they'll never truly be mine again (not like they were in the first place. all i want is someone who will view me as a romantic partner, i just want one in general. that explains why im so stupidly desperate